Sorry this part is so late.
I've been meaning to do it but I haven't had that much time and everything. Anywho, here it is now!
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The next morning, I woke up with one thought on my mind. I was giving up. On Ben. On Haven. On everything. The only reality check I wasn't giving up on was Eleanor. I was going to fix her yard, even if I was going to have to do it alone.
During school I mainly just avoided Haven, and ignored everyone else. that is, until I caught Haven staring daggers at me. I pretended I hadn't seen her, and got through the rest of the day. It was a miracle how that happened.
Once I was home, I changed, grabbed Sam and my journal. I wasn't going on a walk today; I was going to the park. It was just a short walking distance, and I needed to clear my head. I got one of my favorite cross body bags and put all the things I needed. Once Sam had his leash on, I rushed away.
Reality Check; I just needed to be alone.
I still planned on helping with Eleanor's yard but that would have to wait. As I walked to the park, I observed my beautiful surroundings. The huge oak tree that looked like a tree house belonged in it. The leaves that crunched under my feet as Sam tried to catch some falling above. As I arrived to the park, the noise from the kids, picnics and games surrounded me. It felt so comfortable. All the kids playing, and having fun. Something so simple, kids enjoying the pleasant weather, but that's what made it beautiful, I guess.
Sometimes, the simplest things are the most beautiful things.
Like running into Ben on that day.
It was so simple, but something that made me happy. Something I would call beautiful.
I found an empty picnic table, set Sam in my lap, and set the rest of my stuff down. It was time to write away, somewhere that i could enjoy and clear my mind.
"What should I write about?" I said aloud to Sam.
and then it hit me. Just like that, I knew exactly what to write about.
"Even though there's a lot to complain about right now. (Haven and Ben, to name a few) I have chosen to write about the good, and the beauty that surrounds me. You see, i'm at the park right now. People of all ages surround me. Young couples on a date, kids playing, teens having fun. Here I am, in the middle of it. Just watching. Watching the kids. The young girl who isn't as athletic as the others but she still fits in. The young teenager who doesn't feel as pretty as her friends, but knows she is excepted. the boy who's trying to please his girl friend. And I know, that in reality, life is simple. yet so complicated. And I know that there is a place for everyone to fit in. Even if I haven't quite found in yet."
Then I realize that I've come here to run away from my problems, and now it's time to face them. To find where I fit in.
So I grab my things, and leave.
The first place I go to is Eleanor's. I have to help with her yard. I'm going to even though I will be doing it by myself. But then I see it.
In the middle of the yard there is a lawn mower that has a note attached to it. Before I can even think, I read the note.
"let me know when you pick up the yard. I would love to help, sorry I didn't say so when you asked.
"OMIGOSH!" I say out loud.
Seriously, this is a BIG deal. Why didn't I decide to face my problems sooner? I walk over to Ben's house and find he's in his front yard.
that was easy.
"Um, hi Ben." I say slowly and somewhat shyly.
"Hey Kat. I was hoping you would stop by. did you get my note?" His reply was cool and smooth.
"Yeah, wanna help me?" I say quickly because only one thing is really on my mind at the moment.
he wanted me to stop by. he wanted me to stop by. he wanted me to stop by. he wanted me to stop by. he wanted me to stop by. he wanted me to stop by.
Kat, stop it.
And the next thing I know, we're walking to Eleanor's house. 'We're' as in me. and him. together.
"I really appreciate the note and everything, it was really sweet." I manage to say.
"It's not a big deal." He says with a half smile that kind of makes me die inside. Just kind of.
At Eleanor's house he mows while I pick out all the weeds covering her path that leads to her porch. We don't really talk much, since we are both working intently and the mowers loud.
it's mainly because the mowers loud.
I'm kind of freaking out in the inside though, because I don't really know what to say, or do, so I just keep on working.
before I know it, he's mowed the front and back yard, and I'm done weeding. I get some flowers out of her garage that I know she was planning to plant. I get back to the front yard and start digging for the flowers. After Ben has finished putting up the lawn mower he plops down beside me, which takes me by complete surprise.
Not that i'm complaining.
"Need some help?" He asks.
"Sure. Could you help me dig?" I reply and hand him the shovel. He takes it willingly and starts to dig. I can tell he knows what he is doing by the way he digs and how quickly he's done.
"Wow, have you had experience with gardening?" I ask him.
"Yeah, I use to do it all the time for my mom."
"Oh, cool. So is it something you and your mom did together?" I reply. No offense to him, I guess it just sounds kind of weird.
But I can tell by the look on his face I must have asked a bad question. There's a short moment of awkward silence before he looks at my confused expression and simply states, "No. I just did it for her. I better get going." With that, he drops his tools and gloves and starts to walk away.
What the heck? I wanna say to him. Sorry okay? I asked a bad question, I didn't mean to. Now he's going to leave because of it? ugh.
"Oh, um, okay. I Guess?" I pause before quickly adding, "Maybe you could help me a little tomorrow before she gets back on Sunday?"
"Sure. Whatever, um i'll see you later."
"Bye." I add, before he opens the gate to the white picket fence and is gone.
What did I even do wrong?
Ugh, boys. I feel so confused and strange, but at least we had a little fun together before he acted all weird.
I stay in her yard for a little longer, and plant some more flowers in the holes he dug. Then, I return my tools and observe the work we have done. The improvement in her yard is tremendous. There is still work to be done, though. Some flowers still need to be planted, some shrubs trimmed, and the porch sweeped. I can't help wondering if I will have Ben's help on that or not.
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That's it for noww!!(:
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